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Oh, I could have written this myself. YOU ARE WORTHY, NOT UNWORTHY. You may not believe but we need your voice. We need your contributions to the world. The reason you (and me and others) don’t see it/ feel it/ know it is we have not had people who showed us our worth. Really we need people to teach us our worth.

So, please believe me when I say you are smart (how would you have made it this far if not). You are a good communicator. You have a heart and it is breaking right now. Give yourself a break and be kind to that person beneath all the pain.

You are there. That is the person you need to take care of.

You’re young. I wish I had known how to get to know myself and my depression that I know now- looking honestly what the pain meant by writing about it. By talking about the feelings beneath the sorrow. By knowing that the important thing is to keep going, never give up. And that I was/ am important.

So, in closing this book 😉 believe in you. Talk/ write about your feelings. Find a counselor who really listens, ask them to paraphrase back to you what you tell them. Ask them to let you talk out your feelings and let you connect the dots.

Never give up. Never.

I realized at one point that I was always either angry, sad or hungry.. And crying? I spent many years crying when I didn’t have work restraints. First it was Sat night. Then it was all weekend. Then it invaded my nights too. Going to work the next day was so much fun (read NOT fun at all). Crying is okay. It releases tension and hurts.