The world has been comming down on me for a long time now and i cannot keep up with it anymore, i hurt physically and emotionally and nothing helps, 15+ years of feeling terrable And i cannot keep going. Dose anyone have a reason to keep going? Probably not. So if anyone would like to help me do myself in that would a big help. I have tried but i guess not hard enough.
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I’m sorry you’ve had so many years of pain. 🙁 I’ve been there. Am there. 20+ years! But things are getting better. I am learning about my pain. When I hurt. When I feel the fear, I try to look at it, journal about it, feel it (shutter, shutter!! NOOOO but yes).
Here is what there is to hold on to- we learned this behavior, this feeling of despair, this depression that kept us alive through pain and hurts and left us with the depression…, and the pain and hurts? Well, they are there but we hush them. We tell ourselves they don’t matter. We know that is a lie but we have to manage them somehow.
But we have to see the person behind the pain and hurts. A wonderful human being is waiting for us. That person deserves to feel good. Deserves to be loved and appreciated. It starts with you. Believe in you.
Life is always changing. Nothing stays the same. Things can change for the better!
Take care of you, please.
Sometimes being at the point where you just give up, are done, can stop trying so damn hard.. is ok. Now your cup is empty, totally empty, and maybe you stop resisting, so you can let life back in…just a little. You can sit back and just say Fuck it…I give. Then see what happens. Don’t look or expect anything…just watch…like you’re watching a movie.
I can’t help you do yourself in. You’ve done a good job of that already.
(I’ve always found making comments here for others is actually a comment I need for myself!! Funny how that works)