The last two month’s have been the worse month’s of my life. I have destroyed my master’s degree, relationship with parents and have no friends around me, all for stupid, pathetic, childish reasons and obsessions. Will my end be suicide ?: I doubt it. However, I will be running away, at least. I was obviously born with a defect. I seldom know what else to say– I have merely destroy my self; another dust in the wind, taken away, thrown into the depths of nothingness.
Goodbye everyone.
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You have certainly come to the right place. Most of us here are in the same boat. Every month this year, except for 10 days in late January/early February, has been the worse of my life. Actually, in the last 10 months, I don’t think I’ve had more than 6 (maybe 8 at best) good weeks.
The last 12 weeks have been especially hard. I have lost all hope. I have lost all reason to live. My will be to live is gone.
I had planned and scheduled a suicide attempt three times the last four weeks, only to abort at the last minute. I figured out that my chosen method wasn’t suitable for me.
Now I’m considering alternate methods. I still plan to be gone by the end of this month. My birthday is coming up early next month, and I definitely don’t want to be here for that.
As you can see, you are not alone in your pain. I hope there is a way for you to fix things. Even if it is not ideal. As long as you have hope and a reason to stick around, things can improve.
I wish you the best.
I will be doing the same, I was glad to read that I’m not alone.
My birthday is coming in about two weeks. It’s this May, im also thinking of disappearing…
Blargyness, my birthday is in two weeks.. I was hoping to have my plan by then but looks like I need more time