Being honest with my self, I feel suicidal, I constantly have toughs about killing myself and ending this misery once and for all.But I really don’t want to die, I just want to live without the constant overwhelming feeling of not having energy, being tired all the time, not seeing a good future, feeling alone even with lots of people around me and having this thing called asperger syndrome that makes me feel horrible when I try to socialize or establish relationships. Or perhaps its true I just don´t belong here and must end all of this as quick and painless as possible.
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OMG!!!!!! You have just written MY story. In an odd way, it helps to know I have some sort of cosmic twin.
well….. I was going to say it was nice to know I am not the only one…. but it sounds strange. It’s not nice to know that some one is passing for all this stuff. Hope is the only thing that keeps one alive, I hope you can get rid of all this negative emotions.
Help me out? What would a good life look like? Have you EVER felt, even for a second, that you DO belong? What were you doing when you felt it?
Someone of more value than myself in my life is on the spectrum. It means they need to place themselves (sometimes with my help), in the environment they DO feel contentment for awhile. It may mean on top of a mountain, alone with their books for a week (set boundaries), whatever. For the person in my life. being with other intellects is vital. Unfortunately, they are more intelligent than the rest of us can keep up with, no matter how we try.
This moment in time is a snapshot in your life. Only you can truly determine. then take, your next chosen step in life. Just remember: the SPECTRUM is the spectrum; YOU are YOU!
Grrr – I can’t type worth a damn on my meds!
Im with you..