unconditional

I don’t know what I can say to you WL to help, except that 115 days is a really long time and I understand your pain. Maybe that’s easy for me to say because I still have my son and I’ve recently started talking to my ex again. But I did go 14 months without talking to her after she had me removed from the house following 24 years of marriage. As you well know, that is a hell not to be wished on anybody. She really destroyed me emotionally as well as financially. I don’t expect to ever be the same. I really have no hope for the future and try not to think about it too much. I doubt if there’s anyone else out there for me and even if there is it would be difficult due to my finances and mental health issues. I have no idea why you and I and many others find ourselves in this situation. All I can say is that there are people who understand and care and you should keep talking about it. Also, I don’t want to be premature on this but in the last day or two I’ve thought that just maybe I will make it through this. I only feel it slightly and I don’t know where it’s coming from and mostly I do still feel pretty miserable, but it’s there. I hope that it lasts and grows stronger and my wish for you is that maybe, just maybe in time you might find some comfort too. I’m sorry I was kind of long-winded here and talked so much about myself, but I hope what I wrote make sense and that it helps maybe just a tiny bit. Stay strong, you are not alone in your struggle.