Do you guys know?
Do you guys understand?
I think so, your’e all so nice. I love you all but it’s my time. I just had a very scary episode. My family is downstairs and they’re all going to try to kill me. This doesn’t even make sense, but I guess it proves that I am truly insane. I put my lucky dice near the door to stop them from coming in and it’s working. I have voices in my head, they tell me to kill people (mainly myself), they are Shirley and Danny. They’re so nice to me sometimes, everyone else is trying hurt me except for you guys. I don’t know why but I’m so paranoid and schizophrenic all of a sudden, it’s really strange and slightly scary. I’m going to kill myself tonight (hopefully), just like me and Shirley planned. Hang myself from my doorknob. My dice are the only things keeping me safe. Goodbye I hope anyone who reads this has a good life.
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Why would they kill you? 🙁
I’m not sure. It’s just what Shirley told me.
Anyway, who’s Shirley and Danny?
Shirley and Danny don’t exist. You must acknowledge it. They are just creations of your imagination. They are NOT right and your family ISN’T going to kill you. You need to be treated for these voices.
Probably, but I’m not going to get treated.
@allyssa they are voices in my head.
LittleBead is right, alonelybird. They doesn’t exist. They’re just your imaginary friends. Anyway, do you consider them as your friend?
I’m not sure they’re helping me to kill myself which I’m thankful for. They scare me sometimes, like when they’re telling me to hurt people and I don’t want to and I just scream at them but they don’t listen. They just scream louder.
@alonelybird Do they hurt you, if you don’t follow what they have said?
This hasn’t been going on for very long but no.
Right. By the way, nice talking to you. It’s getting late here, so goodnight. I hope we could talk more often about your problem. Just talk to God about your problems!
P.S
Don’t kill yourself tonight. It’s not your time yet 😛
@allyssa nice talking to you too. Goodnight. I don’t believe in God. I probably will but don’t blame yourself. I decide when it’s my time. If I don’t I’ll post something. 😛
See.. I cant lend advice or even care about this.
It’s one thing to claim that you hear voices and believe that your parents are trying to kill you.. but it’s entirely different when you simply say you aren’t going to get treated and you don’t do anything about it.
I really use to think my mom was trying to poison me when I was a teen, so I didn’t eat. My mom has always been a bit off her rocker. But i faced my fear and came to reality that my mom really does love me and she wouldn’t hurt me.
I still get fits of paranoia and it shows me that I still need help. You have to assume especially if you know and tell everyone that your insane, that you can’t and don’t want to do this on your own. Don’t just bullshit people into believing you are gonna kill yourself. It ain’t gonna happen.
Ok i take it back.. she’s trying to kill me with some rank ass fish she just cooked.. think I’ve got 48 hours left to live yall
Dude i have an idea. I’m insane too. I do weird and crazy things. Like you can’t imagine! Lets make a team and go all around the world killing people. I have voices in my head , lets do it. Let me now if anyone wants to join. We’ll make a team , put masks on and lets kill people! After we have fun and kill enough people we will kill ourselves 🙂
State with ISIS please, then Hamas, Hezbollah, Boko Haram and so on.
I’ve thought along those lines too-if you’re gonna die, might as well take some really evil people with you before you go. Leave the world a little better off. Plus you’ll die as heros, loved for something.
The US should have a military division for ‘suicidal missions’ and use people who want to die to kill a bunch of terrorists.
Start with….
I’m sorry bird that you’re having these thoughts. It’s a consequence of paranoid schizophrenia. Just find ways to control those voices and stick to rationality. You know your family doesn’t want to kill you and you also know there is no one talking to you, if they’re not actually there…it’s your brain doing this.
There maybe drugs and therapies to help you deal with that-you should seen a psychiatrist. If I had this problem and if I could control it, I’d keep living-if there was no treatment and it was debilitating me from living a reasonably normal life, I wouldn’t stick around. Life isn’t that special or great that we should fight any odds to survive-fuck that. If life isn’t going well, it’s just better to end it. Why live in endless suffering? Just my opinion.
I keep having fantasies of killing my dad- but they are projections from my will to kill myself-
at least I know how homicide happen now.
This reality theres nothing certain, everything we are taught is only in human interest, not in interest of reality, therefore were taught to hate reality and slave ourselves to others.
Its tempting to kill other people- because everyone participates int he lie- WTC7 was a controlled demolition, look at the videos, the testimonies, the Danish supreme court libel trial on that subject.
The world is a conspiracy, people are one being on their own- and soon as they are in the presence of other they put on other invisible garments. the alter ego is the hate for others, half of our reality is the reality of the troll- it exists in everyone- hatred for others and ourselves.
Thank you everyone. It makes me cry reading all this but not in a bad way. The only reason I wasn’t getting help was coz I had planned on being dead so it would have been ineffectual. I’m getting help now.