Im back to where I started this time in front of my parents I bit myself as hard as I could in front of them. They said I need help but my whole family does. I just got in a relationship with a girl I have been dying to be with. And now my mother treats our relationship like its her messed up marriage saying I give her too much attention and soon she will get tired of me and not love me anymore. She even had the audacity to go to my girlfriend and tell her “Dont distract him from what he needs to do with his life. He doesnt need to put so much attention on you with the future he has.” This night I asked her why she doesnt like my girlfriend and she brought up a bunch of irrelevant crap except answering the question. Then after she left she texted me this. “I will be praying for you tonight because obviously you have slipped into the hands of the enemy because you have climbed on a throne and now think you are God and your girlfriend is Jesus. I love your girlfriend I do not love your worship of video games and your relationship with her. It is sad yo see you not able to balance your life because you think all you need is her and her family. Your phone will be turned off in five minutes. It will be turned back on when you work your first day on somebody’s job. Feel free to make whatever arrangements you need to live where grass is greener. Love mom ” When my girlfriend calls I stop everything im doing to talk to her and talk to her. If im doing something important I let her know and She calls back later. So, I want to take 14 pills because it signify the best year of my life. The only thing that is stopping me is my girlfriend. I Love her too much to let her go. I dont know what to do.
share your suicide story
Report Post
Please log in to report posts
3 comments
To have a parent that treats you so disrespectfully, I’m so sorry. No one deserves to be treated like that, yet alone be treated like that by a parent. Obivously your girlfriend means a lot to you, just remember to protect your heart as well, but if you don’t want to die for her, think of yourself as well. Not in the selfish perspective but rather the glorious perspective. Don’t die for you, don’t let your Mom get what she wants. Maybe even try understanding your Mom. Maybe she’s so bitter and angry to you because the attention you use to pay to your Mom you’re now giving it to your girlfriend. Show your Mom you still do love her like fire. I know it’s hard, so freaking hard expically with the cruel things she has said to you, but instead of letting anger and resentment fill your heart let it be love. More love to your girlfriend then you could ever imagine, more love for your Mom then she could ever imagine, and even more love for yourself because you deserve to be a human and deserve to have an amazing life.
You wrote that ” I want to take 14 pills because it signify the best year of my life”
Really?
Taking pills because this has been the best year?
You should not. Your girlfriend needs you.
Most people don’t seem to realize that taking too many pills doesn’t often kill. Instead it makes you sick. Violently sick. And it also damages your organs. Not enough to kill you but just enough to make life suck.