So I managed to stay the whole day at school today, which made it a promising day. What was bad was what came after it.
I don’t know if it’s just me causing all of these problems in my relationship or if it’s naturally strenuous because of how me and my boyfriend are. Regardless, I got pretty upset today. To cut a very long, ongoin story/conversation short; I don’t believe he is making enough effort in our relationship. We never do anything, and all I’ve asked him is that one night when the majority of people aren’t there if we just take a walk down to the beach, get some cheap crappy ice cream and chill for a bit before walking back, bearing in mind we live about 10 minutes walking distance from the closest beach.
Now, for one reason or another; he never wants to go… With me. With anyone else he jumps at the opportunity to get out of the house, but with me he simply says “No for gods sake, I’ve told you before KH I don’t like going out sometimes”. I’d be fine with that given my own tendencies towards going outside, but his sometimes is always when it’s with me. I can count on one hand how many times we’ve actually been out of the house other than walking to and from each other’s houses, and I honestly don’t think that’s a good thing.
To whoever is reading this; you may be thinking I’m overreacting. However, my boyfriend, let’s call him J, received a text from someone who, from her own doing, is now but a former close friend of mine. My relationship with her is more civil now but i still feel uncomfortable with her around J (and yes I have talked to him about this but I just get called paranoid and so I have given up on any attempt of that pursuit, though I am sure if given the chance she’d jump at him). But the text – she asked him to take a walk down the beach with her. He said yes. She THEN asked if I wanted to go, knowing I’d be pretty annoyed knowing they arranged meeting without my knowing (which to anyone would seem a bit strange if it was purposely kept a secret – I would not have been as bothered if I had known about it). So; he asked me to go and I said no, I had work to do, knowing full well she had asked him and i simply didn’t want to see her. I told J he could still go, but he refused and I commend him for that. But then it stuck in my mind that he wanted to go when she asked him. So I asked him about, and he simply made an argument out of it and told me I was being ridiculous. He was in my house at the time so it wasn’t a too heated discussion, but still produced tears of course, on my end obviously. I’ve just messaged him again trying to explain how I felt and the only response I received was “????”, and I am now back to being ignored.
Right now I’m open to any suggestions about how to help this situation. May I add this has been an recurring conversation for quite some time now and no matter how many promises are made, not once have they been kept.
Thank you