Everybody will be better off without me. I’m a burden to society in general it’s actually quite embarrassing.
I have nothing to offer the world. My grandmother used to tell me everybody has a purpose in life–maybe mine was simply to die.
Just a few more nights…until then I’m getting dressed up nice for the last time right now. I’m going to see my grandfather. I feel like it doesn’t make a difference if I go to family events or not anymore. Nobody actually cares if I’m there or not. But I’m sucking it up and truthfully I’d like to my grandfather and his dog one last time, and see his house that has a lot of great memories surrounding it. I used to look for frogs every time I visited as a kid.
One time my grandmother babysat my brother and I when I was no older than 7. We made each made angels out of popsicle sticks and some kind of soft white paper. I lost mine and I looked everywhere for it. I remember her telling me to ask God for help. I prayed and almost immediately after I found my Angel in a place I swear I already looked. That’s one of my favorite memories with my grandmother. I wish I still all 3 of those angels
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You still have the angels, man. That’s why you cling to them. Don’t count yourself out just yet. Give it two weeks. Just two. Can you do that?
Your thinking of what society thinks of you, don’t worry about anyone else, what they think of you. Be happy with your self, let people think of you as they wish, they are just bricks in the wall. And evaluate exactly how you are burden? What could you possibly do that would falter society? Nothing because you are not not not not a burden. You offer society a kind soul when there is shortage of them, you love your family, you can make more of those memories…just give yourself the chance. So do not give up just yet, I won’t tell you not to do it, but at the very least, think about what your doing.