Starting Over

Can’t tell you how many times I’ve had to start my life over again. Locations, friends, schools, jobs, girlfriends and fiancés.. everything. Starting over use to be incredibly hard. But once you reach that end.. there is most often, a fork in the road. And you must choose a path. Death..or starting over. I’ve reached my end enough times to realize that at the end, you lose a lot of cares. And if you can manage to come back a smarter wiser person, you come back with little to lose..but everything to gain. As long as there is breath in my lungs, my heart will continue to process new concepts of hope and courage.

I’ve given up my career of 13 years. I’ve decided to go another direction because I was never happy doing that work. But i lack certain skills, I lack medical and psychological advice (and proper medication). There are just many things I lack to achieve new goals. Luckily I’ve made an older friend who is undergoing council, and she gives me the advice her doctors give to her. We are very similar as people so it makes it easy to accept the advice she gives me. We’ve both concluded that it would be best for me to not only seek help, but also to go back to school 🙂
I’ve always rejected the notion of going back to school, but honestly..I don’t have many more choices these days lol
I feel a sense of excitement, probably cause I’ve lost so much that anything new and productive gives me a reason to keep pushing.
I simply need to give myself a chance to learn and heal and get better. Baby steps towards getting my life back together. I have a strong hope that this time, if I start small enough, it will be the last time I have to start over.
Thanks for reading 😉
Never give up!