Worthless

Been kinda upset recently. I have a friend who actually asked me on a date about 6 months ago, but never been in a relationship before I declined because I was scared and just don’t date people. I’ve kinda realized how good of a person he is and that I definitely do have a ‘crush’ on him, though I don’t know if I’m ready for a relationship considering how my last one ended. He’s literally a guy version of me but with better qualities personality-wise. But now he’s completely uninterested and moved onto better people, I guess. Like he definitely had a thing for my friend Lily in the past, and although they don’t talk anymore, now he has something for my friend Dani. I joke around with him and ask when we’re getting married and he just totally rejects me, nor does he ever like want to hang out anymore. And it’s not because I rejected him. He asked my “best friend” if I would make things weird if he asked me out and she said no, so we continued to hang out and whatever like normal, but now I’m back from college for the summer and I don’t know. It’s got me pretty upset.