I messed up really bad. I left my friend out of an activity that I planned. At the time, I didn’t do it because I dislike her but because I forgot. I have always prided myself on being kind. But I keep forgetting to invite her to stuff. I do not know why. I swear it is not intentional. I have apologized but it isn’t enough. I know she hates me now and it is all my fault. She is mean to me sometimes and now I can see why. I do not deserve to be her friend when I am always hurting her. And the worst part is that I tried to conceal my wrongdoings from her because I feared she wouls be mad. Now I know that doing that only made it worse.
I am a terrible person and I deserve to die for being a bad friend. I have attempted suicide in the past but now I know tonight I will actually do it. This is what I deserve for being so terrible. I wish I could tell my friend that I value our friendship and I would do anything to repair it but she already hates me. I’m going to kill myself.
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I hope you do not commit suicide tonight. Everyone makes mistakes, and as long as it wasn’t your intent to hurt her, you shouldn’t hold so much guilt within you. If you’ve apologized and tried to make things right and she doesn’t want to accept it, give her time. Unfortunately, some friendships have rough patches but if you do your best to be nicer to her and make up for your past mistakes, I’m sure things will work out.
Please don’t hurt yourself, I’m sure you can work this out.