The girl that hides all behind a mask.
Fakes smiles and laughs when she gets hit and falls to the ground.
Telling her self its ok because one day she will be free.
But late at night crying and cutting her wrists to shit .
She ends up laying down and watches the blood leak from her wrists and wispers why me.
Why am I hated so much? It’s realy hard to breath in this fucked up world .
Why do guys hit me is it because I am nothing ?
Why dose my father hate me so much why cant he leave me be .
He tortured me abused me to the point I lost memory.
I am known as a deamon to all my family and they want nothing to due with me why I dont understand but its always been that way.
Laying there awake slowly drifting off to sleep knowing I am locked in a cage and no one has the key not even me .
One day I know i will die and maby then I will finly be free from this nightmare life I live.
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I don’t know through how much pain you have been, neither I know your story, but you know even in a world like that there can be nice things which might not solve your problems, however they can cheer you up for a bit and help you to get through tough times. According to your name I assume that you like anime for example. If you need somebody to talk to I am here just message me.
Thank you. And yes your right there are nice things and yes i like anime lol
If people hit and physically abuse you that is a crime, so you should inform the police and try to find somewhere safe to live if you can.
well I basically agree on your comment, however you know it is easier said than done, because the person which has felt the pain, got abused most likely also gets threatend by the one abusing. So they are afraid to talk to anyone about what happened. Neither it’s easy to win the trust of those people because they are scared a lot of anyone.
I believe most of us here understand your feeling and we’re here to help each other. It’s great you’re speaking, expressing your feelings, we should never struggle alone. If you need someone to talk, someone to listen, feel free to message me.
Zalien i have tried going to the cops all they did was ask if i wanted a restraning order.. Kirito your right i wont say anything about the abuse but i dont trust people. And Kyle RB thank you for your comment .
I can imagine that it is difficult, however I believe at some point you have to start trusting somebody again otherwise you wont be able to go on with your life. I mean things that happened you cannot change anymore, neither those scars will disappear, because they are also a part of you.
But if you for example ask a psychologist to help you, you might be able to deal properly with all that happened. I am also sure that would help you how to trust people again. However that is only a suggestion, but for whatever you decide to move on, I wish you all the best you deserve it 🙂
oh and by the way sorry for my bad english >.<
Kirito your english is fine and thank you.:-)
i see, hope things became better for you now that i answered so much later ( sorry about that ).
In case you ever need a talk just let me know or add me on skype its phil2921