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Never Loved

by Thanatos.Nykthos 8/4/2022

written by Thanatos.Nykthos

Looking to golden lights, disoriented by gossamer affection

You never loved me- lie no more. Leave me or love me, I shan’t stand for your façade any longer. I see truth, I knew from the genesis of your sin, it held no virtues.
You called my light delusion, and you called my patience an unchecked ego. When I spoke clearly at last, your shell crumbled, you held no quarter to the lies before which you had brought forth against me. You say it “I love you not, I care nothing for you however you shall live.” And so it was laid plain.

8/4/2022 1 comment

Im getting old woohoo!

by GhastlyReality92 11/2/2021

written by GhastlyReality92

Im getting old woohoo!

my philosophy about how much suffering we should endure is probably comparable to that of clive barkers cenobites ideas around it.
ive honestly seeked out death for myself
ive honestly seeked out a life for myself.
Im at my end. If i can’t die. i cant live. .
im 29years old so you listen hear youngens and old bastards alike: Keep kicking or dont. Expend every ounce of free will. Preserve it. or dont.
im not sick. I never was.
They can take me away but after years of frustratingly ordering my opinions about this matter.. And learning to enter/escape bigger hell holes: Lol no one can convince […]

11/2/2021 1 comment

Coming Out to Parents as Bi…

by Airrie 5/17/2016

written by Airrie

Hi I’m Arianna… So i recently came out as Bi/BisexualxD, but no one knows, but me.. So basically I’ve came out as bisexual to myself.. I’m going to tell my parents, but I don’t know what exactly to say to them, my mum is quite random about her reactions/emotions.. Mostly because of the alcohol she drinks literally everyday, soooo she might be either happy for me or just hate me even more then she does already.. Any suggestions?? Thanks X333

5/17/2016 5 comments

Giving up

by alyzabelli4 5/12/2016

written by alyzabelli4

Everything is my fault it seems , I can’t be happy for more than a two hours , I’m giving up , I push everyone away so they won’t get hurt when I’m gone , and maybe by making people hate me it won’t be so hard . I’m giving up and I’m counting down the days . I can’t wait to be free from everything I can’t wait to be somewhere where I can be happy . I have given up and I have set my mind . I hope I can help others I hope one day people won’t be so sad that […]

5/12/2016 0 comment

Habit

by mranony 5/11/2016

written by mranony

I have this habit whenever I’m down of the cycle, I tend to purposely piss off people around me. I want them to hate me because apparently my hate for myself is not enough to pull the trigger. I want them to hate me so they would feel less bad about my death.

But then again, someone special told me that making them hate me doesn’t change the fact that they care for me.

But then again, my stupid excuse is habit. Or maybe I’m just accumulating this giant ball of hate to swallow.

I want to break up with my lover for this stupid reason. But I […]

5/11/2016 1 comment

waking up to a nightmare

by retrospectivesuicidalepiphany 5/10/2016

written by retrospectivesuicidalepiphany

Every night as I lay my mind and body to rest, I pray the angel of death to greet me. Every morning I am stricken with the remembrance of life. The pain and torture of my misery. Good riddance to those who hate me. Hello to those that have left. Goodbye to all the rest.

5/10/2016 2 comments

Protected: Self-loathing is actually a wonderful coping mechanism.

by whiskered-fish 4/27/2016

written by whiskered-fish

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4/27/2016 39 comments

I Lose…

by Zetsumei 4/21/2016

written by Zetsumei

I lost the game. She really does hate me now even though, my depression and apathy were the causes for why I pushed her away. I guess I deserve this fate… A fate worse than death or Hell… A living Hell with only one escape. It’s fine. I was tired of fighting sanity and life, anyway… I’m moving my date to tonight.

Goodbye, everyone.

4/21/2016 12 comments

My mind walks in the sun while I hide in the shadows

by sammyp 4/20/2016

written by sammyp

4/20/2016 0 comment

I don’t know what this is

by Amme in chaos 4/16/2016

written by Amme in chaos

I don’t hate you, I promise. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I just don’t know why I keep pushing you away maybe you’re just too nice. It’s been so long since I’ve had real emotions and you brought that out and now I’m scared. My dark thoughts visit me while I’m lying in bed, hoping I don’t wake up the next morning but for a while now it’s thoughts about you that whisper in my ear before I sleep. I know how much I hurt you this past week and you probably hate me. I don’t even blame you. I’m not even sure […]

4/16/2016 2 comments

I’m not dead yet -_-

by shatterediris 3/15/2016

written by shatterediris

I know that I haven’t been around for awhile…… I’m still alive 🙁 and no I’m not implying that I have attempted to change that…… Meh school things have been fairly stressful, and in addition to getting “help” most of my free time has been spent in bed. I’ve sort of been hanging out with people recently, I think I can call them friends, not certain though. Failing school and stuffs as always, my professors hate me because I am a failure who doesn’t take the classes that they teach seriously and I am simply wasting their time. My “friends” have also all mostly started […]

3/15/2016 1 comment

Texts From a Ghost

by DaylightFades 2/17/2016

written by DaylightFades

I want to pin you down

and kiss the breath out of your lungs

You’re perfect-

I mean it

To me, you always will be.

I knew that you were a beautiful person

From the moment I met you-

I could feel it.
I think-

you complete me.

The void is gone

when I’m with you.

Nothing hurts anymore.

I think-

I was wrong

It’s too much

You’re too much,

I just-

I want to be there for you,

I really do

And I want to love you

Unconditionally,

But

I’ve let you down

(too many times).

I know I promised,

but as you said,

I’m like the rest.

You should hate me.

Why don’t you hate me?

Just

Stop

Please

I think-

It’s better we never speak again

2/17/2016 2 comments

by xInsanity 2/16/2016

written by xInsanity

I am always sad for no reason. I cry myself to sleep alone in my room. I write poems on wattpad how I feel about the world. I always wonder why I’m still living, it’s for people I care about my mom, my friends. My friends don’t give a damn about me but I still love them. I can’t look in the mirror without insulting myself. I literally have no point in this messed up world. It is the ugliest place I’ve ever been. I have lost my sanity that I have made a finger puppet to talk to. Afew days later I stopped talking […]

2/16/2016 10 comments

n o b o d y c a r e s

by jasal 1/13/2016

written by jasal

it doesn’t feel like they do, anyway.

i want to make everyone hate me so i can kill myself in peace.

1/13/2016 2 comments

My Story.

by crying4u 1/6/2016

written by crying4u

Hi. I found this website a few days ago, and I decided to post my story. When I was 16, my parents took me to a psyc for the first time because I was having minor anxiety and attention issues. 1 year later, the side effects had me depressed as hell. I was 18 when I tried to slit my wrists. I failed, obviously. 3 years later I started cutting. If I’m lucky enough to get anyone here before they start, don’t start!!! I was 22 when I tried to overdose on psyc meds. Now, I’m trying to stop cutting but failing. I want to […]

1/6/2016 4 comments

New Years

by outinthedark 1/1/2016

written by outinthedark

instead of doing a new years resolution this year, i decided on somewhat of an ultimatum. i decided that if this year proves to be the same shit its been like in the past years, i’m not going to live anymore. i’ve wanted to kill myself for going on 3 years, and i’m finally giving myself a reason to do it. if this year turns out to show me that life is worth living, i wont kill myself. i doubt this year will show that, and i’ve started creating a rough outline of how i’ll do it. i shouldn’t be in this world, i […]

1/1/2016 5 comments

Protected: It’s all about me.

by whiskered-fish 12/26/2015

written by whiskered-fish

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12/26/2015 5 comments

Protected: I hate myself.

by daitya1989 12/23/2015

written by daitya1989

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12/23/2015 8 comments

Unwritten Law – Save Me

by architect 12/13/2015

written by architect

I’m sick of my sickness, don’t touch me, you’ll get this

I’m useless, lazy, perverted, and you hate me

Am I alone in finding a way to blame myself for every single problem, no matter how trivial? Honestly, everything is my fault. I’m sorry. Trust me, the guilt is like gravity to me.

She is perfect, and I imperfect. Things are as they should be.

12/13/2015 2 comments

I hate myself

by Link63981 11/19/2015

written by Link63981

Let me start out with a list of things that’s wrong with me

I’m fat I’m stupid (failing 3 classes in school) I mess up people’s day get called names by my parents and I mess up things in general.

I’ve been diagnosed with depression

I want to die and I deserve to anyway

I’m a burden to my 3 friends and family because of these reasons and others.

When someone’s having a good time or having fun ill say something and then ruin there time

I swear my parents hate me they’ve call me lazy ignorant a whiny little ***** they’ve told me to screw of cause I was trying […]

11/19/2015 2 comments

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