I use to be haunted by my dreams and thoughts. Now I embrace them and love them because I always die in them and they always offer peace. That’s all I want. Peace. I’m not scared of death, I’m scared of what comes after death. I’m starting to just deal with whatever happens afterwards cause I’m done with this life. I think I’m finally getting the courage to hang myself. I’m trying to learn how to tie a noose. The thing is, I don’t care about me. I care about random strangers that are on this website that feel like me. There’s a whole website dedicated to this, that just shows there’s that many people like me. I hope you guys get better, I do. If you are reading this, life is a piece of shit I won’t lie but alot of the people on here are the strongest motherfuckers I know. You guys want to break so bad but you haven’t. Do you know how strong that makes you? Do you know how much of an inspiration you guys are? I don’t know any of you on here but I feel like you guys are beautiful people. I just want everyone to take care. Even though I don’t believe it for myself, I believe you guys can get better.
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I think there’s a glimmer of hope for some and sometimes the toughest depression and suicidal thinking brings out the best and worst in people. There’s always hope.
“There’s always hope” Exactly. Even for people that lives are completely rock bottom right now and they are still alive which means that they still have hope, however it may be small, that they will get better. Hope is the key.
You know what? I agree with you – people on here – strong as hell.. look at the shit you have been handed – same for me… you deal and deal and try and try and I hope to God you make it Dusty- I hope somehow we all make it- life is fucking mean- people are mean – but then you find a place like this where lost souls gather and you’ve got to wonder.. maybe we aren’t the lost – find something – ANYTHING to hold on to, because maybe that thread you find today- will actually be part of a glorious tapestry tomorrow… peace
I honestly could not of said it better myself. None of us want to kill ourselves. Were just left with the thought that there’s no other way. Like you said, were lost souls. Take care of yourself. I hope nothing is going on with you either and if there is, I hope you see the light at the end of the tunnel and you break out of the chains depression has been holding you in. Stay strong. I’ll try to make it too.
People been feeding me that line of bullshit since I was a kid. At 31 it only gets worse! “It will get better” is such a blanket term and suggests that it gets better for everyone, all 7 billion of us. I wonder when it got better for people like Ann Frank
People can’t predict the future so saying “it gets better” is false. Most of the people that say that are people that have never experience what you are going through. All my friends tell me “it get’s better” and then I ask them if they have ever dealt with all the things I’m going through and they reply, “well, no” How do they know it gets better? I hope everything is going well for you.
“Biggest lie I’ve been told: “It gets better””
It might not be a lie, you haven’t experienced your whole life so you can’t know. Though then again who can be stuffed waiting?
I’m only 19, I’m suppose to have my whole life ahead of me. Nothing has seemed to have gotten better in the past 2 and a half years so just continuing with living, knowing that it could stay how it’s been, is just scary to me.
Actually it isn’t a lie or a truth. Think about it.
Dusty, great post. You’re so right. That’s why I drag my sorry ass here whenever I’m at my lowest… it’s to see other people who have been just as low, or lower, and they lived through it. That’s the greatest inspiration, not just “it gets better”. Maybe I could believe someone who says “It DOESN’T get better… but you’ll get stronger.”
Put down that noose, man. If you can believe in others, there’s hope that you can believe in yourself. Anyone who writes such powerful words can’t be down for the count!
Listen to Salt!!!! Please!!! I hope you are still here.. i didn’t see this earlier sorry
I guess that’s part of the reason why I’m still here. I know there are people that have it worse than me and are still here. But still… its suffocating and tiring. When the time comes for me to go, I won’t be able to put that noose down. I’m just hoping that time is coming soon. I don’t care about me, I care about other people. It kills me to see complete strangers on here talking about killing themselves. I don’t want anyone to deal with this anymore. My wish is that I will be the last one. Salt, I hope you never have a low point again. I hope you never hate waking up. I wish nothing but the best for you and I hope you get nothing but the best. Take good care of yourself. Keep trying to make people feel better like you did with me, it’s important for people on here to feel like people actually care.
ive been in pain sooo long. dont think it gets better, however the pain transforms. so it could seem “better” but really its just different. talk to me again in a year and we’ll see.