I am nearing my point in which I will be ready to end it. Long story short I am a miserable dissapointment and life would be better for all that I loved if I were gone. I have made my arrangements and have financial taken care of (almost) for my children and girlfriend/fiance. No one knows that I am on my way out,and I would like to keep it that way. My question is,would it be selfish of me to make it so my best friend is the one who discovers my body? I would have documentation for him to read following his discovery,an I trust in him to do what needs to be done after I am gone. He has served many years in the US amry,so death and bodies do not phase him. In all reality he is quite cold and disconnected. Thank you for your response.
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So let me get this straight: You’re asking whether it would be selfish if you were to commit suicide and leave your body in a place where your best friend would find it.
Back up a bit, my friend. You have a fiance, and CHILDREN whom you will be leaving behind by committing this most selfish of all acts. But the thing you’re concerned about is whether you would be selfish to your friend because he finds your body?
Are you out of your friggin mind? What’s selfish, Sir, is leaving your children. YOU’RE A FATHER. ACT LIKE ONE.
Hello,
I am sorry that you are feeling this way. First, regarding your initial question, I can only speak for myself in saying that I would be extremely traumatized if I were to find my best friend dead; especially after they had chosen to leave like that, without sharing that they were depressed, feeling like others’ lives would be better without them. I know your friend is an ex-soldier but I would think that finding your BEST FRIEND’S dead body would be different than seeing dead bodies in the war. Now, I don’t know your situation so take this with a grain of salt but I don’t see how your loved ones’ lives would be better without you. No matter what the situation, I can’t imagine that your children would ever be better off without their father. Maybe it seems like they don’t need you at the moment but that’s what happens with kids! They get “too cool” for their parents, or think that they don’t need their parents because they have “out-smarted” them but the hard truth is that we will always want/need our parents at some point. Whether it’s this year or years down the line, your children will need you. I guess I don’t know how old your kids are but if they are still young just imagine all of the things they are looking forward to doing with you? Or at least expecting you to be there for? Maybe it’s walking a child down the isle, maybe it’s helping when they have kids of their own, maybe it’s simply spending Father’s Day together in the future; these options are endless but my point is that you have to actually be alive to give this them. They will always appreciate it in the end and leaving them to fend for themselves will cause a lot of pain. You also mentioned a girlfriend/fiancé, my question is what leads you to think her life would be better without you?! Again, I don’t know all the information of the situation but it seems to me that if her life would really be better without you then you guys would have broken up. Don’t get me wrong, I am a spokesman for the independent, single life but it seems that if someone is willing the be with you, they actually care about you and WANT you in their life. For what it’s worth, I hope this helps you a little.
I truly wish you the best.
Have you considered that your children would grow up in a broken family? I lived without my parents for 12 years cause they had to leave me behind while they and my brothers go to another country and guess what, it turned me into something dark and twisted. I wasnt the same kid that was cheerful loving caring and all that shit, noone even talks to me anymore unless they needed to. Bottom line is that children growing up without a healthy family can be mentally scarred.
So please if you can still read this, i hope that you would do it for your kids. At least give them a chance to live a good life, a life that you would have wanted for yourself. Dont let them end up not having you beside them.