I wanted to kill myself from puberty onwards. I am now in my 40s. I tried to kill myself 4 times before the age of 20. My life has always been sh*t and I wish my first suicide attempt had succeeded. “A permanent solution to a temporary problem”? I don’t think so. If you have poor mental health it is unlikely to ever get that much better. It will always be there. Plus where I live the government has reduced mental health services due to austerity, as well as benefits for people with mh problems. So I can just survive on the money I get, not live. No relationship, holidays, days out, treats, whatever. I have malnutrition because I can’t afford to eat properly and that just makes my depression worse. I can’t work too many hours because I get so tired and anxious, so I will always be on the breadline and the government keep cutting support. I really don’t see the f*cking point. The planet is too crowded anyway, suicide should be encouraged. The government should offer cyanide pills: if they aren’t prepared to help people live, they should help people die.
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I agree. Reminds me of Kurt Vonneguts, Welcome to the Monkey House: In the not-so-distant future, a criminal mastermind named Billy the Poet is on the loose and on his way to Cape Cod. His goal is to deflower one of the hostesses at the Ethical Suicide Parlor in Hyannis. The world government runs the parlors and urges people to commit suicide to help keep the population of 17 billion stable. It also requires that the hostesses at these establishments be virgins on the basis that this makes the idea of suicide more appealing, especially to middle-aged and older men.
I understand, my first and only suicide attempt was at age 20. I’m dying now.. almost 60. Seriously think about the fact I survived and if it was for the best. Will never know now. I wish you peace and love eternally …