There’s a pile of row boats on the beach and I’m wondering how well I could get away with rowing myself out really far on the lake in the middle of night, taking my pills and throwing myself over with a cinder block… LOL I am drinking too which is rare and I get stupid after a drink or two. But that would be more fitting for a viking like me! To die in the water where I belong!
I’ve considered outlandish things like if I could get away with going to Vegas to end it, until I really got an awesome idea that would be very hard to pull off which would be going to Finland to die. I’ve always wanted to go to Finland (and Scotland too but for a last haul off the earth I’d choose Finland). But work expects me in every Monday morning. Killing myself here actually has a really big road block and that is the guy I love would be looking for me over the weekend and if I’m not responsive there’s a 50/50 chance he would just be like fine fuck you then or he would know what’s up and call out all the stops to have me found. So that’s a real wild card and maybe I should red eye flight it out of dodge. ????
I am a Sagittarius and you can not fucking stop me!! We disappear like a fart in the wind. You never know when we will take off. That’s just how we are.
I wish I had bought more alcohol, I’m starting to feel decent!
Anyway I saw a couple of things this weekend. Yesterday I saw my first gay PDA and that might seem trivial but I’m from a place where you can’t be gay at least not when I was growing up. I’ve only seen gay guys hold hands here but I saw a couple of middle aged guys all over each other all lovey dove on the bus and it made me kind of jealous because I’m a transguy so I can’t ever have a husband. Transguys can always get wives because women just need a guy to look like a guy there are so many lonely women who will live without sex to have a man in their life but there is no man gay or straight or even bi that will be with a transguy. Everybody wants something specific, a dick or a barbie girl, not a ***** on a dude…. it will never happen.
Yes I should have gotten another can of booze…
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What about asexuals? I’m 100% certain someone in the ACE community would be more than happy to rock your boat, wink wink, if you know what I mean…. if not, I mean actually rock you on a boat while going for a row, or maybe to catch some fish. That’s always an option if you’re cool with someone who has absolutely no desire for sex. There are also gray-ACE’s who might or might not be cool with sex, depending on the time of day and the alignment of the stars.
Asexuals don’t want sex and I’m a November baby which makes me 100% on 24/7/365 horn dog perv and I’m a kinkster
Damn it I wasn’t done… I was saying, I’m a kinkster
And I want lots of sex romance and passion
i saw this person on Tinder last year who was a dominatrix, blue alien, pink furry dildo owner, slightly submissive, queer trans attack, whip queen, power power power extraordinaire. no shit her description was something of that nature… i may have swiped left
may have. the pink furry dildo in my trunk might testify otherwise. but seriously though. the best swipe is the delete button for Tinder. I swipe left on the whole fuckin app.
Swipe left, swipe right, swipe up, swipe down thats the only way to find love in tinder town
Alls I know is that there are people out there for every stripe and persuasion, who will appreciate you for who you are. It’s just a matter of finding them. Which itself is just a matter of being open to the idea that they actually exist, somewhere. I mean, if furries exist, and can find furry partners, it stands to reason that it’s all about meeting the right people.
Haha, me too!
but seriously addressing your post. thats not true at all disgusting. why is there that she male section on porn hub then? because obviously some ppl like that shit. someone out there right now is thinkinnn “yo i rly wish i could find a guy with a girls body cuz i rly dont like dyukkkk. dont like dat D. i rly wish this guy was an active writer on some sort of forum too so they could relate with my newfound depression cuz i cant find a guy with a *****.” proof in the pudding. theres a seeker out there. im tellin ya
Because many men like Trans women – male to female Transgender people. I am female to male. There is no interest in that from men!
Going out Viking style, you’d have to set the boat on fire after sailing out to the middle of the lake.
If you’re still alive while the boat is burning you might be tempted to jump into the lake (to avoid the flames).
Are there sharks in this lake?
If not, you could drown while swimming drunk back to shore (which they say is painful).
I think your best bet is Vegas.
I know what a viking funeral is but I don’t want to burn. I’d rather be on the ocean but that’s not doable from Chicago.
I have to say, having dated both men and women (female myself) I wouldn’t give a rats ass if we got down n dirty and you surprised me with a vagina prettier than mine. I’d still consider you a male, if that’s how you relate.. 🙂 don’t let this bring you down, if I’m correct in assuming your transition is for your own happiness, then maybe you just need time. Maybe a new town too. I’m in the Tampa bay, Florida area and we love Our GLBT community <3. Come here and get the hell out of that bigot, close-minded town you live in.