I really feel like im out of touch lately. Kinda droning on by..just on auto-pilot most of the times. My visions been getting weird and im having bouts of dizziness every now and then. I feel like im in pain both physically and emotionally that its just been one drug after another. Hell, just the other night i wrapped up ‘life is strange’ with a cocktail of rum two painkillers, a muscle relaxer and my sereoquel to top it off. And i was still awake and in pain into odd hours of the morning…feel like im growing a little dependant on popping pills just to feel functional but the effect just gets weaker and weaker as i do.
I really need to find my off switch.
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I do pills. It used to help me feel numb or just out-of-it. Now my body is as used to the pills just like it is having my blood flow through it. There’s no difference anymore. There’s just one more step I could take to achieve my old numb-ness, but I can’t do it.
Is it possible to detox from pills so that one can start using them again with the original effect? Can you detox from one by using another or does it just not work like that at all?
I’ve always wondered about this, every now and then i’ll actually stop taking anything. Try to make it a few days on just water and turn the bathroom into a sauna but I have my doubts that’s actually doing anything. -shrugs-