It’s hard feeling so alone sometimes. The nights are cold and long. My body is pretty tired and my mind is worn down from all the overthinking both positively and negatively.
I constantly feel like I’m losing everyone important to me. I have a lot of friends, it’s true, but I long for companionship. I need somebody to console me. I have lost a lot but I’ve thrown away more. I realise that.
It’s hard wanting love but not accepting it. The one thing I want most, is the one thing that I’m terrified of
Feeling unwanted is the sole reason I hurt inside. Yet letting someone in is the one thing I need to do to relieve the pain.
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I’m sorry you feel so lonely. I know the pain it causes. You’re right though; letting people in is the only way.
*orders another pallet of bricks and continues to build*
My walls can never be high enough.
I feel exactly the same way and I’m sorry you have to feel like this.
There’s this line from a Fionna Apple’s song that describes perfectly this situation:
‘How can I ask anyone to love me when all I do is beg to be left alone?’
The whole song is about that, actually. Feeling painfully alone, but pushing everyone away and not letting anyone in. It’s therapeutic for me, in a weird way, knowing that other people can feel the same way.
I love this…. And i hope you feel better… <3