Almost everything I do seems like a remedy for something already wrong in my life. It’s not that I don’t know what happiness is or haven’t experienced bliss at one point, but nowadays it feels like I’m merely living just to survive and for what I think is “right”. It’s like I’m contemplating the simplest actions every single time before they take place, even my thoughts feel like they are preconceived without my authority. I’m becoming more and more detached from reality, society, and people in general. I want to connect to the world, but there are factors that limit me, and I’m forever with them. Wishful thinking turns to contentedness, turns to reality, turns to hate, turns to despair, and then finally turns to the end. The void, nothing. I hope my story doesn’t have to end tragically, but sometimes you have to do what feels right.
Finally a good night tune for the good folks at SP, love the site, love the people, try and stay positive :).
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Actually I think this is a song I could fall asleep to, ty for sharing it.
I hope your story doesn’t end like that either.
This post really resonated with me. I like the song. I really hope your story doesn’t end that way. I hope there’s a twist in it soon and things become easier, more real, more happy.