Not that it matters. Things were good for a while. I was still in a really dark place, but I had found a way of coping. I could deal with the day to day shit. Now I’m breaking again and no one can catch me. No one would want to. Ya know? I’m a burden. I hate that, but it’s true. I need someone to depend on. I’m needy. I’m a burden. I’m fucking helpless. I could explain my situation, but what difference would it make? Him.. Can’t ask him for help. That’s selfish. I’m clingy. I’m needy. I’m helpless. I’m a burden. Let’s stop this list before it gets too out of hand…
DO I HAVE TO BEG SOMEONE TO GIVE A FLYING FUCK?!
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Good to see you sammi although I wish you were doing better. Have you heard from salt lately?
I have. We speak almost daily. He’s breathing. Just taking it a day at a time.
That’s great to know. Ty. 🙂
Hi Sammi. It’s cool to see you again though I’m sorry to hear you’re not doing well. Glad that you and Salt are still kickin’. (My username was Opacity before.)
*sends good vibes* I hope things get better for you soon…
Thanks, man. I really appreciate that. I’ve been wondering if you were still around. Glad you are. Best of wishes
Hey Sammi, it’s been a while. I’m being pretty hypocritical when I say this, but just ask for a little from a lot of people; principle of hobo’s I guess. You’ll get by somehow. Best of luck friend.
Ugh. I’m SO bad at asking for help. Feels wrong. Thank you.
Sad to see your back here but nice to see someone familiar so many new people now
I’ve noticed. Doesn’t seem like I was gone for very long, but I’ve yet to see more than a couple of familiar names. Really says something about where the world is right now. I can’t help but wonder how many are dead and how many have found happiness
I’d like to think wherever they are, they have fund happiness.
Such a lovely thought. I do hope you’re right.
I think God takes special care of those of us who leave this earth because of pain. Intentionally or not I can’t believe that each of us doesn’t deserves a measure of happiness, either now or when we start the second chapter of our existence.