I Cant Do This Anymore….

A perfect weekend ruined by one conversation. After a wonderful 21 st birthday celebration. Now just sitting here with new bruises and scars all over me. I cant do this anymore. taking the pain out on my self from the stress, pain, every single little thing that goes wrong and attacking myself like some kind of animal. If I want to be able to live another 21 years this has to stop. I know I have a lot of bad things happened in my life and some good things. I am seriously considering on getting help like get counseling. I don’t believe in this method normally but I don’t want to die yet there’s too many people who would be affected permanently if i was gone. Plus the other methods I’ve been using are no longer working. I know the best thing for me would be to put myself in therapy for a few weeks. I But I sadly don’t have time for that with school and such. I’ve been meaning to schedule a counseling appointment for a few weeks anyways to get tips on how to survive the holidays since that time of the year last year wasn’t necessarily the best time for me. Thank you guys and gals for listening. 🙂