I just wish I could escape, to get out of here. To just walk endlessly and lie down and die. Just disappear. I’m so fucking done. All the people, all the people; my friends, people I don’t wanna know, people I used to know. I tried and I fucked up, I haven’t had my pills in about a week. I just feel like shit. Everything’s crashing down, gone, just pointless bullshit. I hope she’s okay, I’m just unable to be there for her right now like I should(?) be. I need a reprieve. I need sleep too but that’ll just lead to more school. She came into my life at the wrong time, the worst fucking time. It could’ve been the best for the both of us if we’d of only met a couple weeks later. I’m too fucked to deal with this shit right now. I need some kind of drug to send me away for a bit. Oh wouldn’t it be nice if I was gone…. Maybe I’ll kill myself. It would be nice.
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🙁 Sounds like you’re having a particularly bad time at the moment. You tried, and messed up, that happens to everybody, it doesn’t mean you’re a bad person. You can’t always be there for someone else when your own world is crashing down, you’re only human. If there are things you don’t absolutely have to do and you can’t deal with them, then put them aside for the moment, take a breather, save your resources for what Must be done. I think you should get some sleep if you can, you might have an improvement of mood when you wake up. You’ve felt better than this before, you’ll feel better again.
Thank you
yeah I guess you’re right is just hard to put them aside because I feel like it might hurt her
Tell her that you have some serious things you need to work out at the moment, it’s nothing personal but you might not be able to be in as much contact for a little bit, when things calm down you’ll be back