The majority of posts on here seem like a cry for help, if I’m being honest with myself I’m just here to vent.
I don’t plan on committing suicide tonight, but one day soon I will. I’ve been depressed for 8 years which is a third of my life and all of my adult life.
I’ll never understand why some people are challenged in life more than others, why some people can live long happy lives while others suffer every waking moment.
I’ll willingly admit there are people out there who have it far worse than I do, but I am at a constant struggle to find a real reason to continue on.
Never in a million years would I have expected my life to turn out this way, to feel so terrible for such a long time.
I just want to say to everyone out there struggling with depression, I’m sorry. I know your pain and I wish everyone could be happy.
I can’t wait for this to be over..
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I hear what you’re saying. Wish I had a magic answer for you, but I guess everyone has to find that for themselves Hang in, Stay strong
I think a lot of people post just to vent. I’m sorry you’re in pain as well.
I’m sorry about your pain. Feel free to vent whenever you need to, someone is always listening even if they don’t say so. Many people are on this site because they need to let out their thoughts and feelings.
I never thought my life would end up this like also. I wish we could all be happy. No one deserves to suffer like this.
I wish I had some comforting words to say, but I don’t. I was majorly depressed for a long time when I was your age as well. If finally went away when I started on anti-depressants. But after having 5 pretty good years from 2000 to 2005 I completely fell apart. I’ve never been the same since. Been hospitalized many times, tried almost every psych med available. They don’t even help me sleep even though I take klonopin, ambien, Seroquel, Zyprexa, AND Depakote at bedtime.
I am grateful for the 5 good years I had ( I stayed home and raised my son from ages 2 to 7. Oh yeah, I was a stay-at-home DAD AND very happy in that role. Also, I keep hoping this depression will recede.
I don’t know if any of this helps. The 5 good years I had were from age 35-40. Maybe if you can stick it out, something similar will happen to. Good luck, you’re not alone.