I never though that I would honestly feel this way because I thought I would always be happy but I guess not. I always felt upset for some reason. Something would just happen that was happy it turned out to be upsetting when I thought of something different. I mean people would notice anything because they were to selfish and thinking about their stuck up lives and making a reason to make other people feel bad for them which I though was kinda stupid because other people are going through harder times which they don’t understand. I just want to go away that’s the easiest thing to do besides trying to make everything okay because it’s not going to happen. I really hope it will be fix because I don’t want to live a sad life I want everything to be perfect in my view that’s just how I want to live and maybe things wont get fixed that apart of life. I just want to start over again and I wish I could be smarter that would be the first thing I want to fix. Honestly I want to fix everything there is a 20% chance that may happen. Hopefully this will help and make me think differently.
~Depression is like a war. You either win or die trying~
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can’t start over, just got to deal with what we have. there are different kinds of smart, no one fits all categories. Going away seems easy and then you sit there and realize it’s not, it’s friggin hard. What does it mean to fix everything, how can you? It’s impossible, you can’t, because you can’t control everything. you know that everybody has problems, in perspective ya some people have things a lot worse but even when it’s something minor it’s nice to have someone say they understand and know what it’s like and… Nothing is perfect.
If you start over, you’ll make the same mistakes. The feelings of the need to start all over again is a great stimuli to avoid what u may think u did wrong in the past or present. If you had the slightest will to fight depression.. I support you with all my heart and soul. You must realise that u cant have everything the way you want, u need to learn to let go.. Wether they are people, dreams, hopes or whatever .. Dont get ur hopes too high and try to care , expect less from everything.. Dont let go of happy thoughts, they may save u. Dont push away good people, try ur best to keep em.
If you want to take this advice or not its up to you… But, the first step to fight depression is not to be here, u need to stay away from the people like me. Ascend urself into a better and more cheerful level. You see some of us have already died, and dead people do no good for the living…