Everyone tries to make me feel as if I’m crazy.
I can’t even talk to my husband because he looks at me like if I were an idiot.
Every time I try to be happy I end up crying and hating myself more than before I wish I knew what to do. As of this moment all I can remember that kept me sane was being a teen and cutting myself because no one was there to judge or tell me I was crazy. I’ve literally just started cutting myself because I just want this pain and sorry feeling to stop!
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We all live in this darkness, just everyone have his different story.
To be honest, i dont think you are crazy at all. I wish if i could comfort you, but everytime i want to write something i feel myself contradicting it and erase it. Ive spent now 5 min writing these lines… I want you to know you are not alone.
At night i look at the stars from my window.. I feel good
Because i know when i look at the stars there is absolutely someone out there who has the same feelings is looking at the same stars in am looking
I keep holding that thoughts until i sleep.
I feel you, i hope this makes u feel better.
I’m sorry you’re hurting so much. Please know that you’re not alone. You have all of us to talk to.
Maybe you’re trying to be happy too soon. It might be better to work on it step by step and not have any immediate expectations to feel better, but keep working. That might be finding support and talking about it, trying relaxation techniques, making hobbies, going outside more, exercising, seeing friends, making plans, practicing positive thinking… but whatever it is, making habits of those things. When you’re depressed and you feel an inch closer to happiness, or you’re actively trying to be happy, it’s common for you to feel a sudden, gut-wrenching pull back into despair. It doesn’t mean you’re stuck there.
You should talk to your husband. I don’t know if he really is thinking that or if it’s only you thinking it, but I don’t think you should let things like that make you feel bad without confronting them.
You’re not crazy. Not at all.