“The responsible one, the mature one, the reasonable and the rational one. No, I could never just take all that Xanax that’s not right. Gotta keep the grades up gotta stay smart gotta do it right or it all goes downhill.”
Right? That’s who I fucking am, right?
But, you see, I’m so god damned tired of being the responsible, mature, rational girl that knows not to make stupid decisions. Drugs and alcohol are no good, I know what they do to you. I’ve sat through every fucking school assembly about how deadly that lifestyle is, I’ve witnessed people go down that path and never return. But I’m tired of listening, and caring.
Why can’t I just let myself fall? I just want to fall, because those few moments of falling before hitting the ground and shattering every single piece of who I am… Those would be the best moments of my life.
I just want to let go.
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I totally agree on the reasonable part. allowing yourself to fall however? Nope you’re far to special for that. Just wanted to let you know I read your post…I’m checking into dreamland here. good night.
So what do you actually want to do?
What I want to do? Lose myself.