Is this really what my life has come to I am finally with the women of my dreams I love her from the bottom of my heart she is a single mother of one that struggles from schizophrenia I work 2 jobs 70+ hours to provide for them because they are my everything I have been with her for a little over a year and everything is falling apart she has had legal trouble in the past and its starting to catch up with her she recently got caught driving without a lisence for the 4th time and the public defender says she will spend some time in jail I don’t know how to handle all of this I have suffered depression for years and when I met her the love of my life I felt there was someone who could finally share my pain my happiness all my life has to offer Monday she goes to court and I find out how long they put her away for ( they said because of her other past crimes that I know she was fraimed for I know how that sounds everyone says that ) they said with her past record and kuz they found weed that’s she uses to calm down the voices in her head she will probably face at least a year in jail idk what to do or how to cope with this how to help her 4 year old daughter understand where her mommy went when we already had to talk to her about where her dad went and he isn’t coming back I am fighting the urge to just end it if seems so much easier then what is to come we are trying to enjoy every last.minute we have left but I just.don’t know how to handle all of this I feel like my brain is going to explode if you are reading this I thank you just to know someone ells is looking at this somehow makes.me feel aa little better
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Is there someone who can look after her daughter? Please don’t kill yourself and abandon the child if she has no one else. If you feel unfit to ‘parent’ her, she’ll probably have to go into foster care.
I’m sorry for your troubles, it’s unfortunate that your lady is so… well, irresponsible.
I know I can’t its just so hard there are relatives but most of them are unfit to be there for her I just don’t know where to start I love Lilly (the kid )with all my heart and soul I just don’t know how to be a father how to take responsibility how to fight for the legal rights to her so she dosent end up with her trust me unfit is a light term relatives there is just so much to do I am overwhelmed to the max
I read it. 🙂
I’m sorry you’re in this situation. I’m even more sorry it’s led to you having to fight the urge to end it. I’ll just say this: if you want to be with her then this doesn’t have to be an end, and a person is capable of getting through a lot by believing that they can and that things will be okay (even if believing starts as teaching/telling yourself for a long time). I’ll also say that the person you’re with has clearly done reckless things before (“for the 4th time”). I don’t know if that means she’ll do them again or if this will be the thing that stops her, but you need to know whether it’s likely to happen again and if you can handle it again if it does. But you sound confident about your relationship. Love can survive anything, so your love for her and her daughter can triumph the depression if you keep it strong. It does involve taking a lot of responsibility, but if you’re willing to do that it can be made less overwhelming by sorting through one problem at a time. Just remember it’s possible – not simple or easy, but definitely possible – to survive it and come out the other side.
I envy your strength and I’m glad you’re in love so my friend you need to stay strong for the child and for the woman you love your strength has carried you this far you just need to push a little further also she may get probation or let out on good behavior if she works hard just make sure she knows she’s loved this is a hard time for you both she might want to hear it