It’s been a while, although it sits at bay ready at a moments notice. Just waiting for the next opportunity to form again. Sad existence. No real purpose. I feel like I suffer so everyone else can continue. When I hear of someone committing, I am not sad. I understand that this place is not for everyone. Read a quote that the noise is too much for some. Or something like that. I’ve got more to say but gonna stop now. I wanna see if anyone relates.
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Hi. I think quite a few people here can relate. Is there anything that helps it stay at bay for at least a little longer? Are there warning signs that things are about to get rougher?
I see this is your first post. Welcome to the site. If you’re comfortable, feel free to share a little bit about what’s going on. Others might be able to provide a bit of insight. You’re definitely not alone in this.
“I feel like I suffer so everyone else can continue.”
en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Ones_Who_Walk_Away_from_Omelas
“The Ones Who Walk Away from Omelas” is a 1973 short story by Ursula K. Le Guin.
Omelas, a utopian city whose prosperity and success depend on the perpetual misery of a single child, kept locked beneath it in squalor and torture.
However many comments you get, there will be a lot of people who read this and relate.
I read something once where someone said that people who died by suicide were too sensitive to the pain of this world, so they had to go onto the next one where they’d be angels. A lot of arguments could be made against that statement, but it’s an interesting way to look at it and true in a lot of ways (such as most people who die that way being exposed or hypersensitive to a lot of psychological pain). If I remember right, it was in a story where someone gave it as an explanation of suicide to a child.
I hope you post more.
I too also feel like i suffer so everyone else can continue like i feel like i have a purpose but that purpose is not so i can live a good and healthy life its so everyone else can live a good and healthy life.
It makes me wonder who actually is selfish. Maybe everyone and if that’s the case, why should I care. Very difficult to he caring, empathetic or whatever and suicidal. Doesn’t make sense. But not sure what does.