Every week my world gets smaller.
I feel isolated, and am drowning in hopelessness.
A few months ago I reached out for help at school. They sent police to my classroom that forcibly arrested me and dragged me out of the building. From there I was sent to a hospital in the middle of no where, where they never spoke to me but diagnosed me with a mulitide of conditions I dont think I have.
My whole life, being open and vulnerable were big parts of who I am. But since the arrest, I cant talk. I cant reach out to even my friends. All I can do is sit in silence.
Even better, my college kicked me out for 2 semesters and I can’t go back until I have doctors clearance. What was my only form of human contact is now gone.
I spend most days laying on the floor or taking sleeping pills to pass out.
I see no other option for me. I feel like the longer I wait, the smaller and more jagged the walls of my world will become.