Every week my world gets smaller.
I feel isolated, and am drowning in hopelessness.
A few months ago I reached out for help at school. They sent police to my classroom that forcibly arrested me and dragged me out of the building. From there I was sent to a hospital in the middle of no where, where they never spoke to me but diagnosed me with a mulitide of conditions I dont think I have.
My whole life, being open and vulnerable were big parts of who I am. But since the arrest, I cant talk. I cant reach out to even my friends. All I can do is sit in silence.
Even better, my college kicked me out for 2 semesters and I can’t go back until I have doctors clearance. What was my only form of human contact is now gone.
I spend most days laying on the floor or taking sleeping pills to pass out.
I see no other option for me. I feel like the longer I wait, the smaller and more jagged the walls of my world will become.
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Wow, I am so sorry 🙁
May I ask in what country you live? Geez, they sent cops to your classroom (for a “mental health” hold I assume)?
I am sorry this happened. You should not have been treated this way – nobody should.
Twenty One Pilots – Car Radio
To sit in silence.
Can’t help but love this song. I’ve seen it on here before. Sorry I can’t help more.
Small town America.
The level of paranoid the cops have made me is suffocating.
I’m sorry that is terrible
I’m so sorry this is happening to you. I’ve been there. It’s a dark place. You can get through this. There is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Dam what in the fuck. What a humiliating experience that must have been. You told the school, in confidence, what was up and they pull this shit. No wonder you don’t feel comfortable speaking out. Omg, hang in there. .-.
Sorry about my language btw. What they did to you pissed me off.
I had a similar situation and now I”m also in the dark…I told my therapist I started having suicidal feelings and they scared me and I wanted help. She sent me to the ER where they forcibly told me that I was going to be involuntarily committed. I escaped the hospital and the cops were looking for me…pinging my phone and everything. It was scary. Now I’m scared to tell anyone how I feel. I WANT help….but when I got help it was not the way to go about it. They explained nothing to me…just took me away. That was almost 3 years ago. I’ve never stopped wanting to kill myself. I hate that the system has treated us this way and then friends and family and communities get so upset when smeone does go through with it…its appalling.