I don’t have an eating disorder, but I do use starvation as a form of self-harm. The pain and weakness that come with intense hunger are gratifying in a sick, sick way. Hunger is one part punishment, one part distraction. I deserve to suffer this way, and the suffering keeps my mind off of how terrible I feel emotionally.
I haven’t had a full meal in 3 days and have been sleeping through dinner. The best part is that no one in my family cares. I told you. I deserve this. No one in this house would care if I rotted away. I should really just kill myself already.
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how does one stop himself/herself from eating?
punishing yourself is just a reminder that you’ve done something that needs reparation. How badly could you possibly have screwed up to justify killing yourself?
If only Gandhi were alive to give you an answer.
Anyways, you just need a good enough reason.
Meant for this to be a reply to alexia, but fucking computer messed it up