I have been depressed for a long time and still never believed I was lonely, I have family and family etc.
Just this week it all came clear to me. Nobody understands me, nobody know who I really am, they don’t care about anything I like or are interested in, so I have nobody close to talk to.
Now it only feels like I have no friends, and my family are another world away from me. I don’t talk to them, and I have nothing to say to them, if I started talking about a passion or something I’m interested in, they would be hearing my voice, but not listening to me.
My whole life I have had trouble with talking and people listening to me. If I where to say something, I would get no response and people would just continue with what they were doing, or they would ignore me or just not listen to me at all. The only person this has been obvious to is me.
Now I often regret anything I say and have a weak voice. I feel so lonely and silent. I have nobody to talk to besides the faceless people online that I don’t really know and won’t remember me than any of my real ‘friends’ and ‘family’.
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“My whole life I have had trouble with talking and people listening to me. If I where to say something, I would get no response and people would just continue with what they were doing, or they would ignore me or just not listen to me at all. The only person this has been obvious to is me.
Now I often regret anything I say and have a weak voice. I feel so lonely and silent.”
Now ask yourself why you think that those things are that way. Mind if I ask you what your age is?
I’m 15 years old.
Yeah I get lonely sometimes too. I have friends and I have a good family. I get out and do things quite a bit too. But for some reason I feel lonely too. I guess its because I have never met my soul mate. I have been in relationships but never found that person to be really really close with on all levels. So now I can even be around a whole group of people and still feel alone. I guess I also feel a bit different then most people and that makes the loneliness more pronounced. anyway if you need somebody to chat with my email is my SP handle @yahoo
Lawli, I’d like to offer an explanation for what you’ve been experiencing. Careful; I might be wrong. If I’m right, however, you’ll realize it in time. The same goes for anyone else reading this, as I am confident there are many of us here:
I believe you may be mentally gifted. This is an incredibly complex and poorly documented problem which has only recently been gaining popularity in some more progressive parts of the world. It is not a compliment; a high intelligence is a very small part of what I am proposing. It is mainly a problem, as the mentally gifted often fail to achieve recognition.
Quote:
“A quick and clever thinker, able to deal with complex matters. Autonomous, curious and passionate. A sensitive and emotionally rich individual, living intensely. He or she enjoys being creative.” (Delphi-model of Giftedness – Kooijman – van Thiel, M. (red.). Hoogbegaafd, dat zie je zo! 2008)
Worse, even, is the fact that most psychologists and other mental health professionals are not only unaware of this issue, but typically misdiagnose giftedness as AD(H)D, autism or some other disorder due to similar practical symptoms (isolation, frustration etc). Needless to say, this causes severe and misplaced self-doubt.
Gifted individuals are known to contemplate death, and ill-recognized gifted individuals are regularly suicidal. I cannot back this up, as I’ve learned this from time spent at a closed gifted support group.
Here’s a good resource concerning this topic:
http://ihbv.nl/international/english/leaflets-eng/
You are free to ask me anything, whether related to this topic or anything else. Whether you are gifted or not, you are right; few humans understand what it is to know another. To be one of those few, is awful.
Lawli, I’d like to offer an explanation for what you’ve been experiencing. Careful; I might be wrong. If I’m right, however, you’ll realize it in time. The same goes for anyone else reading this.
I believe you might be mentally gifted. This is an incredibly complex and poorly documented trait which has only recently been gaining popularity in some more progressive parts of the world (2010+). It is not a compliment; a high intelligence is a very small part of what I am proposing. It is mainly a problem, as the mentally gifted often fail to achieve recognition.
A brief definition:
“A quick and clever thinker, able to deal with complex matters. Autonomous, curious and passionate. A sensitive and emotionally rich individual, living intensely. He or she enjoys being creative.” (Delphi-model of Giftedness – Kooijman – van Thiel, M. (red.). Hoogbegaafd, dat zie je zo! 2008)
Worse, even, is the fact that most psychologists and other mental health professionals are not only unaware of this issue, but typically misdiagnose giftedness as AD(H)D, autism or some other disorder due to similar practical symptoms (isolation, frustration etc). Needless to say, this causes severe and misplaced self-doubt.
Gifted individuals are known to contemplate death, and ill-recognized gifted individuals are regularly suicidal. I cannot back this up, as I’ve learned this from time spent at a gifted support group.
Here’s a decent resource concerning giftedness:
http://ihbv.nl/international/english/leaflets-eng/