pointless post

This is honestly just a post to get out my thoughts because they just keep clouding my head.

Anyways, I’ve been so emotionally drained the last few months. Like, there are some occasions where I’ll feel happy,  sad, or angry, but if it’s not any of those, then I’m literally numb to it. And even when I do feel those, I don’t know how to react to them. I just don’t feel anything; it’s like my whole body is disconnected from my feelings. I just don’t seem to care anymore about anything. My grades are getting worse & I only have 2 weeks to fix them, but I just don’t see the point in doing anything to change it; I have zero motivation for anything. I’m surprised I even get out of bed sometimes. When I wake up, I just want to roll over & fall right back asleep. The only good part about waking up is being able to fall asleep again later. That’s all I ever look forward to.

I feel like my friends don’t even like me. They never seem to want to hang out with me. Am I really that bad? All I do is try to please them but apparently I’m just annoying them, or at least that’s how it feels.

This post was pointless, & I’m sorry for wasting your time if you read it.