After about a month or so I’m back to SP with my suicidal thoughts. Is this a surprise? Of course not. Have been reading SP since 2011, 5 years. When will this end? When I accept what happens to me and move on (god forbid), or i do the right thing and end my existence. I hope the latter happens. Soon, clean and unpainful. I know I won’t do it though, I have too many unknowns about ending it.
Back to SP 🙂 I like this place. As I’m writing this I feel a warm feeling as if I’m home. I like you guys too, I understand you, you understand me. More important than understanding, you and I, we can FEEL what we are experiencing. Empathy so to say.
It is so cold outside. I want to take a long walk and just freeze. But things are not that easy or romantic hahaha 🙂 Not doable.
So with the utmost necessity of ending it and being absolutely unable to do it, I come back to my people in SP. Saying hi and talking nonsense 🙂
P.S. Does anyone know where that gentle soul Trix is? Couldn’t see her anywhere.