I’ve given up. It was the other day I decided to not message the guy I love again, but then by chance he ended up sending me a message. However, I’m still resolving myself to just give up. I know I’m not important and I have no place.
Odd that I’d finally get around to trying to complete his promise to me since he never will. I just pored the shit, so, if it comes out at all, it’s gonna be seriously jacked. The mold was split in half and in 3 sections. Took a shit ton of work to try to seal it up. Best I could do was build around. Certainly not like a solid pice to fill. Lots of cracks and surely there will be excess to cut off of the final product, if there even is one by this time tomorrow. I’ve decided to call it the Faildo. So much fail has been put into it.
Sigh.
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Hi again. I know I always say this, but I think you’d feel so much better cutting him (and any, erm, reminders of him) out of your life completely. Reading your posts I think you’re maybe hoping, even if it’s a small hope, for someone to replace him with before you could do that. But with him around you’ll always want him above anyone or anything else.
I hope you can do that one day. After some time completely away from him you might not see him in quite the same way.