All my life I’ve studied and worked like a dog to achieve success. Now, at 27, from the outside, it looks like everything is perfect – money, friends, girls. Inside, however, I’ve been battling anxiety for 9 months now. Every day I wake up and I dread the next bedtime. I fear I won’t be able to sleep well and everything I built up will slowly turn to dust as insomnia destroys my life.
Then, most nights, I actually do sleep well. The fear stays, though, and gnaws at me constantly. People say, “Let’s meet next week!” And I’m not certain I’ll make it to next week.
I envision catching horrible diseases, like Restless Legs Syndrome, that will prevent me from sleeping well ever again. I don’t have anything yet. But maybe this will be the first night one of these starts.
It’s a neverending, nerve-wracking torment. You work your ass off all your life and it turns out that there is nothing at the end of the rainbow. Just more work and your own fucking brain torturing you.
I ordered two 100ml bottles filled with a very special liquid that solves all problems permanently. If I really do catch one of these diseases, or if I really do get insomnia, I’ll drink this special potion. I will NOT stand by and cry as all my past effort goes to shit. If my brain doesn’t want to sleep at night – it will sleep for ever.
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Anxiety is fucked, so is not sleeping. Have you tried klonopin or trazodone or something similar?
Nope, no medications yet. I want to overcome this shit from my own power, I fear medicine would just treat the symptoms without healing the underlying problem.
Do you have any experience with anxiety meds?
Anxiety can be overcome. You can get someone to talk to. Someone who’s opinion you trust. They can reassure you that works.
Anxiety can be hard to overcome sometimes it takes a little more
The anxiety meds are like downers , they’re really just to take the edge off. You wouldn’t use them to get rid of the anxiety, but you would take them to relax before bed. This would make it easier on yourself while trying to help those underlying issues. They may not work for you, but they also might. I definitely recommend trying them out and finding out yourself. Anti-anxiety medications work differently than anti-depressants but many times they are taken together because anxiety and depression are like the team rocket of mental disorders. I’d also recommend Melatonin which is a natural chemical that your brain produces to fall asleep, it’s also non addictive and over the counter.
I’m going to try that recommendation because my anxiety is so bad I shake and can’t do ANYTHING
I feel you, i hope they help you out.