New years update 2016

I havent been in here in what seem like ages. I used to use this sight to escape my reality and let out all my anger and sadness. Since i last was on my world has turned upside down and I truly didnt know what true sadness was until a few months ago when my mom passed away. She is my EVERYTHING my life, my soul, mt breath and for a long time she was my reason to live. NOw I struggle everyday with finding a purpose for staying here on this earth. The thing that keeps me going is trying to live my life in honor of hers. Its a struggle but so far I am managing; even if its barely. I recently got kicked out of my house my roommate and am living woth my boyfriend and his mom until we can find a place together. I am so thankful to have them in my life because I dont know where I’d be without them… Ive been shown so much love by these people and I will forever be grateful. I’m starting back at dance as well on MOnday but was demoted because I took a break from dancing since all of the events that transpired. I’m excited but kinda disheartened because I am SOOOOOO behind on my training. Its what I’ve always done though and I’ve spent all my life dancing so I figured I should give it one more go before I move on…. I just really hope this new year brings lots of love and happiness because I dont know if I can take another year like 2015. I’m trying to stay hopeful.

I dont know how many people are still on here when I used to be a regular on the sight but I hope all the old folks as well as the new have a happy new year and remeber 2016 is a NEW year. If youre not happy with your life your time is NOW! You can do it! Make a change! Give out as much love as you can. SMILE! You all are beautiful souls!!!!!!!

Sending all my love,

Sunflower <3