Sand Clock

Day by day I feel like a sand clock seen the day pass by so slow that I can’t even breath.

Since my grandoarents died I feel so empty that I can’t fight anymore I’m sick and I hate all the treatments. My mother day by day tell how much she love’s my brother and that she doesn’t expect anything from me. I hate these pain that I just want to die.

At the university I met my husband he is my best friend he wanted to take care of me so we married on august 20, 2015 on the civil court but he never touch me is like having a friend by your side. I’ve talk to him about that and he tells mehe loves me but he’s afriend of hurting me he knows the cancer could come back since I had it 4 times and that he cant’s have anything with me, the he tried but he just love me and the fear of loosing me doesn’t let him.

I know is my sickness and the digosting felling of being with a woman that had been rape also. That’s why I’ve decide to take all the money that my grandparents let me and all the properties and business and make life easier for everyone when everything is done and is ready for him to take my place I’m going to rest.

There are some people that love’s me they are not my family but they are like family and I’m preparing some things that are going to help them on their needs and some letters. I hope they forgive me but I have to go and release this pain and aches so bad that I can’t pretend to be happy anymore my only happines is justice for the death of my grandparents and meeting with them.