As I feel closer and closer to the end i have a sense of happiness and excitement for some strange reason. I don’t know if it’s the thought of leaving everything behind and not having to suffer any longer or what awaits me on the other side. Last night I sat in my room looking at old family photos and it brought a smile to my face of all those happy memories but now so distant and forgotten. I’m just not cut out for this world never have and never will be, so what’s the problem in me just ending it all now? I have nothing to show for nothing to love and no where to go. She was my everything, my one and only, my soul mate, best friend my rock, no one could ever replace you.. All just slipped away, but that’s what you get when you let your heart win.
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I know what you mean that’s why I say its better to have nothing in life cause then nothing can be taken away saves you from all the pain to have nothing then you want know loss or pain I feel for you my heart goes out to you
I know what you mean dolphin. I have sheltered my heart. Protected it with everything I have so I don’t feel the sting of heartbreak. My life is hanging by a thread. Add a break up and I won’t even think twice about ending it.
It makes me sad to know you haven’t changed your mind King. Hope you find the peace you are looking for.
It’s the huge crowd of spectators at the end that makes you excited. Sorry, you sounded like Mersault in that novel.
All this for a girl? Sorry again, I know she’s not just any girl. But I’m sure you’d say the same thing about your next girl. I’m very certain of that…