‘Suicidal people are made, not born’ was a post I saw once. But is that really true? When I was born, the doctor had to cut my mother open and forcibly bring me into this world because I had a failure to thrive. Even in that infantile state I knew I did not want to be in this world.
Several months ago I tried to kill myself. I took over 50 prescription sleeping pills and washed them down with alcohol. Do you have any idea how depressing it is to try to kill yourself and fail? This was not a cry for help or attention. My girlfriend was in the house, I was drinking, took the pills and went and laid down, figuring that I would fall asleep and never wake up. My girlfriend had no idea what was going on. She found me several hours later in a completely incoherent state and called an ambulance once she realized what I had done. I wanted to die, I still do.
People say that suicide is a very selfish act, and to a degree I agree, but not in the way you might think. It is selfish of the loved ones of the suicidal person to want to keep them around. How much pain and agony must the suicidal person be in to want to take their own life? If a person really cares, why would they want that person to go on living in that much pain?
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Yeah I never really thought about it that way in terms of selfishness. Suicide is a selfish act no matter what anybody says I have yet to found one person in this world who has 0 people that care about them whatsoever. In terms of others being selfish however, I guess you can say that. But at the end of the day dude there’s still hope to get better, that’s one reason why they don’t want you too and just because they approve of your suicide to let you be in peace it wouldn’t really make it emotionally easier on them.
I’ve tried numerous times to die and haven’t been able to succeed. Im only here because of failure. I understand how you feel and agree wholeheartedly. To ask someone to stay in pain just to be a placeholder in their life is more selfish than seeking an escape from said pain. That said i hope you can find peace enough to stay.
I’d love for my best friend to read your post maybe it will enlightent them up a bit. no I’ve gone over it even your post would be in denial to my best friend. Suicide is made, ppl but very few made me like this. So no I never felt suicidal I wasn’t a stressful person type until my world crashed at 17 realizing ppl family(aunts uncle’s the nerve) and my parent passing away And what my best friend and I put each other through made me like this. Regrets shame loneliness and no coping resource failures results in being made on powerful suicide. Wow your attempt is hardcore yeah alcohol with meds would do the trick painful method though ive tried it.
Since youth i had some good recognition skills.. My dad was severely depressed. He tried to kill himself several times.. He failed all of them and he became so sick.. Due to illness and maybe for those failures.
Do you have any idea.. what feelings do a kid have to grow up with by constantly thinking my dad is trying to suicide any moment. Do you think you know what kind of environment and livinglife i had to put up to survive.
Its No You dont. Because ur the one whom trying to kill himself… Not ur gf whom trying to be there for you
Am not blaming you btw nor judging not anything..infact,. Am trying to kill myself too
I was selfish. I didn’t want my son to die.
I didn’t want my son living in pain, but I wanted my son to be alive, to have hope and joy.
When he killed himself 7 years ago, I experienced raw excruciating heart break.
But, I felt relief for my son.
I am unselfish. I am sad.
My son was never selfish. He is at peace.
I’m sorry you lost your son 7 years ago… My ex fiance took his life 7 years ago as well. 11/16/09
Well i guess it will be 7 year this november…
Thank you for your sentiments. My son left 3/22/09. Sometimes it seems like just yesterday; other times it seems like forever and always. So sorry for your loss, too.
Suicide isn’t inherently selfish; it’s an act of desperation.
I would turn the selfishness claim around. Nobly trudging onward through the pain of life to spare your loved ones the pain of your loss is selfless and commendable. We won’t get medals, but we’re fighting the good fight.
We’re not weak or cowardly. We’ve faced hardship day in and day out. Most of us have been fighting our own brain chemistry for years, and even if you’ve had several suicide attempts, it still means that you’re winning the battle much more often than not.