Not sure what to write…..so I am just gonna write. No editing, no revisions.
Didn’t think it possible that it would hurt this bad.
I hung everything on the line, sacrificed it all….and have nothing to show for it….
I guess the one thing I always really wanted was a woman to save me. Save me from myself…..
Now here I am where I started, and in worse shape. I would give everything to go back in time and do it all over again…..to relive the happy moments. To change the way things ended up
But that can’t happen. Life does not work like that….
I am not over her. Probally won’t be for a very long time. However I wish I could find that one woman to save me from the hurt. To save me from my destructive decisions….
I am 29 years old. I should know better by now. No such person exists. Its all a fucking fairy tail. There is no happily ever after for me.
Some of you, I know things will get better. You have barely lived. But for me its too late.
Again the question creeps into my mind, is death the better alternative?
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From my perspective, there’s a ton of women that want to save, and fix… Let me ask, do you really want saved? Saved from what? How do you want them to save you? It’s been a running theme, for me, women are drawn in with the desire to “help me”, even when I don’t ask for help. They get overwhelmed, or in my current situation, try to fix what isn’t broken.
None the less, bouncing back after a break up always sucks. Even when you did the breaking. My advice, is take some time to heal. Work on yourself. Stay open to new possibilities.
I say that if you’re QUESTIONING whether death is a better alternative, then its not.
There are better alternatives.
You just have to find them.