I just don’t know anymore everyday seems to be more of a struggle how do people live years with suicidal thoughts ? I started having them like 4 years ago and last year I started to act on them in not afraid of dying no more I’m more afraid of living right now it’s kind of sad well I guess this is how my story meant to go and I’m ok with that I think in my life iv had more down days then up days and last year was the loneliest year of all and to be honest the loneliness is killing me more then anything and being trapped in my own head sucks if I have to go though the rest of my life like this I rather go now if I knew my life would of turned out like this I would have killed my self years ago
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Ive been struggling with suicide thoughts and attemps for over 10 years off and on. Its no picnic for sure. I have gotten treatment from a psychiatrist and am on medications. The meds seem to help but I still get down on life at times. I seem to be in a pretty good place right now. Yes loneliness can be a real sucker punch to the spirit. Your not alone in your situation. All I can say is that things can get better with some help and some effort. I manage to have a lot of good days and have a lot of fun with friends and family. For me the best thing has been for me to have learnt some coping skills. and also keeping on my agenda things that I like to do. You got to have something to live for. I hope things get better for you.
Thanks I’m tired of fighting just lost the spark
Walking forward seems to help me. Lately I feel like I’m just walking in place, or I’m on one of those airport conveyor belts, only it is headed in the wrong direction and I am walking really fast and getting no where. Today I just want to stand still and see where it takes me. Well that is bleak. Yeah, I’m pretty tired of fighting today too.
Still: don’t kill yourself, at least not today, mkay?
No I want today just can’t live like this no more watching everyone live life and I’m stuck standing still it’s a horrible feeling