Oh, I have reached my boiling point. My mood is so damn dynamic, yet it never graces a joyful moment or happiness in any capacity. I can mildly entertain myself, but it’s coupled with an anhedonia that leaves me feeling bland and unnatural. I am sick of my meds, seems they only worked for roughly a week, and due to diminished returns eventually my brain chemistry adapted leaving me with raw shitty emotions. I get endless anger; I am a ball of nerves. I desperately want stability, yet every damned minute my mood fluctuates. So exhausted right now.
What do you do to get yourselves out of those all encompassing moods, things like overwhelming anger, an impending panic attack, or really anything that greatly influences your behavior? How do you guys squeeze juice from a raisin, how do you find joy when it seems you are fundamentally incapable of feeling it?