Oknso i am so afaid for tomorrow it’s not normal. My father is probaly gonna come and drag me out of my husbands grandparents house. And. One out of two things are gonna happen .
1. My marriage will break
2. Or i lose all contact with my family
So i dont know how im gonna make threw the night.
And on top of that my brother is getting a divorice and its all my fault.
Why is it my fault because when I first came to fl my parents did not want me here and threaten to drag me put of my inlaws house were i live. So we my dad said no my mom said “you love your daughter i laws more and ypu dont care about ypur own” so she kicked out both of them. My older sister in law said fuck that as for my younger on went home now its all my fault my brother the pian he is foing threw is all my fault and there is nothing i can do about. I just dont know what going to happen . and I am scared shitless I have very few nerve pills and I dont one to sleep because towmorrow will come faster . cutting won’t help either will burning Im stuck ina state I hate my husband will probaly hate me soon too.
I am not happy but im afaid to lose him right now he is all i got but he already said he is not gonna fight no more.
I am not happy in my life at all i wish i werent born but i am and i dont want to lose what little good i have.
I lose my husband or my family either i lose more i have no contorl.
And all of this trouble is because i stood up for myself .l am not ment to be more then a doll thay any body can push around and throw out.
My family is thinking there doing fighting. For my when there not i crumbling more ans more inside
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it’s a sad story … i wish i had someone to fight for , to be married to someone but i was alone all my life , no one wanted me …i dream about it , you know ? maybe life is hard , but when you are married , you have someone by your side you know ? nothing in the world is harder and painful than loneliness and the despair that comes with it … i know i’m not in the position to do so .. but i have only one advice , make your husband reconsider , think about life , think about losing someone , you and him … anything that helps you too stick together … because being alone will kill you and it’s truly sad that this kind of things happen to people because there is always a reason to fight for but most people quit too soon …
Your family sounds intense. Stop blaming yourself for their actions. Your mum threw your sister in laws out, it doesn’t seem like you asked her to do that. And I don’t think she did it for you. Otherwise, why aren’t you living at home. Why is your bro still living at home as well and why is that your fault? Maybe you and your husband need a break from the family. Work toward a place of your own.
All this started becuse i wanted my own place