Oknso i am so afaid for tomorrow it’s not normal. My father is probaly gonna come and drag me out of my husbands grandparents house. And. One out of two things are gonna happen .
1. My marriage will break
2. Or i lose all contact with my family
So i dont know how im gonna make threw the night.
And on top of that my brother is getting a divorice and its all my fault.
Why is it my fault because when I first came to fl my parents did not want me here and threaten to drag me put of my inlaws house were i live. So we my dad said no my mom said “you love your daughter i laws more and ypu dont care about ypur own” so she kicked out both of them. My older sister in law said fuck that as for my younger on went home now its all my fault my brother the pian he is foing threw is all my fault and there is nothing i can do about. I just dont know what going to happen . and I am scared shitless I have very few nerve pills and I dont one to sleep because towmorrow will come faster . cutting won’t help either will burning Im stuck ina state I hate my husband will probaly hate me soon too.
I am not happy but im afaid to lose him right now he is all i got but he already said he is not gonna fight no more.
I am not happy in my life at all i wish i werent born but i am and i dont want to lose what little good i have.
I lose my husband or my family either i lose more i have no contorl.
And all of this trouble is because i stood up for myself .l am not ment to be more then a doll thay any body can push around and throw out.
My family is thinking there doing fighting. For my when there not i crumbling more ans more inside