So, I just found out my best friend’s brother died from terminal illness. I know I should feel sad for him but I don’t. I realize he is Hurt but a part of me just wants to watch if he’ll Break from this. The loss he is feeling right now; I can’t sympathize or feel empathy for. God, I feel like a Monster but there is a contradiction.
Why do I want to save her? If I’m as evil as I think I am, the logical thing would be to leave her to her Pain and let her drown in the sand… Her bf seems perfectly fine with letting her sink but I don’t. Is this just loneliness, a crush or God forbid, love? If so, even if I have to jump into the quicksand with her to push her out of it; the stupid thing is I think I would even if it meant only a few seconds more for her to continue breathing. If love really is blind; I guess I’m fine staring into the darkness if it’s with her, if the light is too blinding.
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If you weren’t close to her then I would say you don’t have any reason to feel grief. Not everyone has the kind of empathy to be that way and I think it might be exhausting to be that way. Nope, I’d say you are perfectly human.
The whole love/infatuated thing, I have no idea. I’ll give you my opinion on that after I figure out if I give a shit about the guy I have been married to for 13 years. We aren’t all wind up toys after all, give yourself some breathing room and cash in your human chips.
Guess I need to clarify since it wasn’t clear enough. My best friend is a guy.
The second paragraph is not related at all to the first. The second paragraph is me trying to figure out why I have feelings for her in the first place. As you said in an email, I don’t even know her.
Point taken. My apologies.