So here i am in church and the only thing i want to do is leave and and cut myself he is talking about depression. So its not like i cant.Relate but i cant breath and i want ro leave i understand what the pastor is saying.but i cant. All he talking about is suicide and o get god you you dont like it i want do it.  Dont give up in your convince and hope and you will be rewarded. Ok i get but damn.  I cant breath and I want  to leave .