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My ex and I talked last night. We basically put our friendship on standby. I think that it was a really bad idea to try to be friends so soon after breaking up. I’m glad we did, because I admit a lot of my anxiety and depression came from that. I do want to be his friend, but it’s just not the right time for him and not the right time for me. I feel as if a load has been taking off of me. But I do feel kind of sad about it. I can’t predict the future and I don’t know if our “standby” will turn into being permanent. You never know how life will go. It just feels like a question mark, but at least it’s better than a forced friendship where we both still have feelings going on. I woke up today feeling slightly better and less anxious.