Call me a dreamer

So, I’m an existential nihilist; The other day I was thinking about how as humans we constantly struggle to find a reason to live. A while back I read somewhere that the next step of human evolution is coming, and that one person in particular will thrust humanity forwards into that evolution. They said that the next step is transcending the human form by one of two ways: becoming one with technology (if you’ve seen the movie Transcendence it would be similar but on an obviously larger scale) or becoming one with the universe (aka spiritually). What if that is what happens after death, you transcend spiritually and become one with the universe, omniscient and omnipotent. We wouldn’t need to struggle to find a reason to live any more and people committing suicide are just boarding the express train to evolution. I dunno, call me a dreamer.